THE SPIRIT OF RESPECT

Rachael Carlevale (27) a yoga teacher, asked the ayahuasca how she could heal herself from a uterine tumor. During a frightening vision of an underworld teaming with spiders, snakes and creepy-crawlers, she focused on her breathing and formed a lotus mudra with her hands to signify openness. “The moment I surrendered,” Rachael explains, “all of the magic and realizations and revelations came.” A sparkling anaconda entered Rachael’s body through her mouth, slithered down her insides and began eating her tumor.

Rachael lives in Colorado, where cannabis is legal. Her fiancé grows organic cannabis, which has been crucial to her healing. “I used it to help with pain and nausea and to help me eat and sleep, which is appropriate,” she says. “However, in the medicine I realized that I wasn’t respecting cannabis as a sacred plant.”

Rachael is developing Ganjasana®, a ceremonial practice that aligns cannabis plant medicine with yoga. “Ganjasana was born from a re-understanding of the human-plant relationship,” Rachael says, “It’s really about cultivating a respectful relationship with cannabis.”

Rachael’s message: “Master plants have a dark and a light side. Focus on the light.”

THE SPIRIT OF THE HONEYBEE

Amy Love (36), a Pioneer Valley-based homesteader and ecopreneur, was a single mom with two young children, working round the clock to get her eco-friendly cleaning business off the ground, when she was awarded a grant. Her breakup with her partner and a sexual attack by a man she dated briefly had Amy “frozen in survival mode,” she says. Ayahuasca allowed Amy to release the trauma, reconnect with herself and remember her dream of “being self-sustaining while working in a symbiotic relationship with nature.”

Upon her return home, she sent the father of her children to Peru to do his own work with the ayahuasca, where he experienced transformative healing that “allowed us to repair our relationship and become better co-parents.”

Amy’s entrepreneurial spirit soared. Just after her third child, Silas, was born, Amy launched Homebody, a line of earth-friendly aromatherapy cleaning solutions that are “purely safe and clean with a conscience.” She was accepted into to the Valley Venture Mentors Accelerator Program, an annual intensive boot camp program that “prepares high-potential startups for serious growth,” where she won a high-stakes pitch contest and walked away with a sizable cash prize.

Long fascinated by honeybees, Amy also became an apiarist. The bees’ cooperation and organization provide a great model for leading a company. “Something really clicked into place for me on a more instinctual level,” Amy says, “about what it means to lead with grace, living by example.”

Amy’s message: “It is time to move forward in what I know to be true and right.”

THE SPIRIT OF BALANCE

Susan Sheldon (65), a master gardener, was classically trained in landscape architecture yet felt something was missing. An experienced ayahuasca journeyer, Susan accepted a grant to explore a new perspective on her work. Participating in ceremonies transformed her ideas about beauty and landscape ecology. Rather than “manipulating landforms and using plants as aesthetic props in a design,” Susan says, she understands that “beauty can at times be messy, but nature is infinitely perfect.”

“Ayahuasca brought home for me how inter-dependent and inter-related all of life is,” Susan says. “Plant and animal species inter-communicate to survive and procreate. I became much more in line with the consciousness of everything, and I felt that the trees and the plants were aware of me and that I was a co-creator.”

Bringing together classical ideas about beauty with vibrant ecosystems, Susan now creates “ecologically balanced, regenerative landscapes with native plants that support native pollinators.”

Susan’s message: “Nothing in nature stands alone.”

THE SPIRIT OF PROTECTION

Mary Averill (57) a social worker and travel photographer, spotted a beautiful passionflower peeking out of the jungle the morning after her first ceremony. “I was struck by how perfectly the delicate purple coronas protected the sweet, vulnerable center,” she says. “I had moments in ceremony when I was enveloped by a soft mesh-like net of protection, much like that, when things got scary.”

Mary now takes a passionflower tincture (a fine extract) before bed. “Passionflower is one of the medicines used for insomnia, for anxiety,” she says. “And those have been two really big things for me during the last couple years.” She’s sleeping better and feels a deeper appreciation for life.

“At some point during ceremony, my DNA felt connected to something so cosmic,” she says. “Because of that, it feels like the Earth, and everything the Earth gives us to live, is so much more precious. I appreciate everything that's going on behind the scenes that we don't pay attention to on a day-to-day basis. Nature gives us air to breathe and clean water and medicine.”

Mary’s message: “Everything the Earth gives us to live is so precious.”

THE SPIRIT OF HEALING

Marina Goldman (55) is a women’s health nurse practitioner specializing in opiate addictions who advocates against female genital mutilation and for the care of children orphaned by Ebola in Sierra Leone. Marina asked the ayahuasca to provide inspiration and clarity. “I had lists of intentions,” she says, “mostly about how I continue to walk in this world as a humanitarian in a time of global crisis.”

During one of Marina’s visions, roots grew up through the maloka floor, tenderly wrapped around her legs and cradled her uterus with tendrils while wood fairies brought her cloaks of fur, feathers and stone. During another, Marina was seated in a circle of woman healers, a “sea change of feminine energy,” and felt healing DNA—passed on by ancestors—in her bones. As the ancestors sat around a fire sharing stories, Marina understood that “it’s an ego-trip to feel you can save the world. I just need to do my part.”

Marina’s message: “Be still, be quiet, always return to nature for the answers.”

THE SPIRIT OF EARTH

Julia Moore (24), a senior studying sustainable food and farming, went to Peru to reclaim her roots as a “sister of the Earth.” During ceremony, she felt herself blasted into space until she became aware of her relationship with the universe, the greater cosmos and the Earth. She experienced Earth as a living, breathing organism.

“I heard the sounds of the jungle, the bugs, the beetles, the thousands of little lives surrounding us,” Julia says. “I could really hear the breathing of the trees.” She fell into a trance, lying on a lush, moss-like belly surrounded by flowers and birds that gently lifted and lowered her with each inhale and exhale. She experienced “all the cycles of growth and dying and then seedlings popping out” and understood implicitly that she was one with the Earth. “I can't untangle myself from it,” she says.

Julia plans to earn a master’s degree in sustainability. Now, she’s growing organic flowers on her farm, Laughing Moon Farm, and selling fresh-cut flowers and handmade flower crafts, and she has a happy, healthy, beautiful baby boy!

Julia’s message: “I am one with the Earth.”

THE SPIRIT OF TRUTH

Zuzanna Buchwald (28), a Polish-born, New York-based model and natural cosmetic entrepreneur, wanted to know where to take her career. Zuzanna’s dream is to develop a nature retreat center where people can “find refuge and relief from urban life.” She has had her eye on a property, and she asked the ayahuasca if she should trust her intuition. “The moment I asked the ayahausca to visit the site, my head turned into this stunning, super-detailed, psychedelic energy map of the entire space, and I could work with it in the medicine, like an artist,” she says. “I got a plan of the entire project that night.”

Zuzanna came home with “a priceless shield of positivity,” a “sense of calmness” and “newfound courage” for speaking her truth. Ayahuasca also reconnected Zuzanna with her country of origin. She is the co-founder of Tisane Balm (@tisanebalm), a natural lip balm made in a village in western Poland where “the air and water is pure and clean.”

Zuzanna’s message: “I can speak my truth and live my dream.”

THE SPIRIT OF REBIRTH

Tracey Eller (51), a photographer, had recently broken off a long-term love relationship when she drank ayahuasca for the first time. She was thrilled to be out taking photographs on the road again.

During ceremony, Tracey experienced a “burning freeze” despite being wrapped in three thick blankets in the hot jungle. On her way home, she woke up at sunrise on Easter morning following a dream related to her breakup and found a butterfly trying to get free through her hotel room window in Iquitos. “It was a whole metamorphosis and rebirth package-deal sort of thing,” she says. “It all felt like a magical omen, just that confirmation of spirit, saying, You're in the right place at the right time. You're doing the right thing.”

Tracey returned to Peru six months later to go deeper. In the medicine, she realized that she missed her mother, who passed away years ago. She grieved, and then she received a message of “self-nurture,” which she worked with during ceremony. She asked the medicine, “What is self-nurture?” The answer: part of self-nurture is being in nature.

Though she considers herself a “city girl,” Tracey is now exploring healing through nature and plant medicines in a way she never would have before she worked with ayahuasca. “Ayahuasca is plant spirit medicine,” she says, “and that's Earth medicine, nature medicine.”

Tracey’s message: “Part of self-nurture is being in nature.”

THE SPIRIT OF MOTHER

Kathleen Barnes (66) a newly retired wellness writer who leads spirit quests, traveled to Peru to experience ayahuasca, her first-ever psychedelic journey. There she had a heart-to-heart vision with a larger-than-life female brown bear.

“My grizzly bear was very much the Mother,” Kathleen says. “So many of the visions I experienced were about the Mother. There was a very strong message about connection with the Mother and Mother Earth, but also the motherer, the nurturing soul of all.”

The mama bear laid on Kathleen’s chest, and Kathleen could feel her heart and the bear’s beating as one. Somewhere in all of this, she could “feel and hear” herself saying, “Yes, I can,” which, she says, “was about both control and surrender.”

Kathleen, who considers herself a “control freak” struggled with the hallucinogenic visions brought on by ayahuasca. After trying everything she could to regain control, she realized that her visions were “instruments of healing.” Finally, she surrendered. “I knew that my intention for balance and healing—to go through another portal in my spiritual practices—would not come to fruition unless I let them do their work. “

Kathleen’s message: “I am in tune with the Earth Mother and with the mother of all things.”